Bobbing along

The weekend is waning. It has been busy, busy with kid activities. These two are growing fast, and yet we still have a long way to go, the three of us, before we begin to part ways. I was thinking about what kind of people they are and what positive influence I have had. I think they have my sense of humor and love of a good story. Then immediately I start to think of what I wish for them, and why some of the things I would want for them are not happening. Certainly I could be a better example in some ways. How can I better lead them down the path of challenge and adventure? How will they really learn about hard work, with or without reward? I would also like them to have greater value for giving and kindness.

When I think of the way that I was parented, and try to examine the traits I developed, I can see my lack of confidence and my need to please. I was lucky, in that I encountered many people who were able to model better behavior. I hope my children have many good role models as well. I don't want them to be crippled by my blind spots.

I ran on Friday, and felt exhausted. I am not sure if it was lack of sleep, or allergies, or just the end of a long week. I took yesterday off. Today is grey and windy, but I think I might enjoy it. I want to bump up my miles a little. I need new shoes.

This is the last week of my class. Everything is due by Saturday, but I would like to get it done by Friday. So many things are beginning and ending this month. School, summer, etc. I feel like I am bobbing downstream, so quickly, that I am missing the sights. I hope the summer takes its time. Ah, I hope for so many things.