H-E-doublehockeysticks

When last I posted, more than three weeks ago, I had just returned from a glorious trip on the Main Salmon. It was not too long after that a severe case of apathy set in. I had the usual responsibilities--school, applying for work, taking care of children, etc. But some things happened that were difficult to deal with. Some of them were my doing, others were beyond my control. The end result being a bit of the blues. I don't really like to talk about these things, because I don't find it attractive.

Well so here I am at the end of the road
Where do I go from here?
I always figured it would be like this
Still nothing seems to be quite clear

All the words have been spoken and the prophecy fulfilled
But I just can't decide where to go
Yes, it's been quite a day and I should go to sleep
But tomorrow I will wake up and I'll know

That I've got to begin again
Though I don't know how to start
Yes, I've got to begin again
And it's hard

Well it's been quite a while since I lifted my head
And I'm sure the light will hurt my eyes
I see the way that I´ve been spendin' my days
And reality has caught me by surprise

I was dreamin' of tomorrow so I sacrificed today
And it sure was a grand waste of time
And despite all the truth that's been thrown in my face
I just can't get you out of my mind

But I've got to begin again
Though I don't know how start
Yes, I've got to begin again
And it's hard



Billy Joel expresses it quite well. I have to begin everything again. My running included. I hope to be back writing again soon. I have a lot of things that need work, so my posts will probably be short, but I know I need to get back into my routine and face the music. I have had my own private hell for the last few days, and if it weren't for a few friends and my family, I would be lost completely.

Keep hope alive,
Holly